dirty rotten...
I feel like such a traitor going into work everyday. This secret is threatening to explode inside me. I shouldn't feel so bad that I'm leaving. If the tables were turned and they were letting me go, they wouldn't give a monkey's uncle about how I felt on the matter.
Is it really my fault that the manager hasn't been doing his job by keeping the store staffed properly? No, of course it isn't... but I don't want my coworker friends to suffer the wrath of our oh, so sensitive manager when I leave. It is imminent. I can't go back on this decision now.
Maybe this all sounds trivial, but this is huge in my world. I have a hard time with change. But, this job has not been a healthy 'normalcy' to live in. It's strange how making this decision has actually made me feel more alive.
Brielle, I keep thinking about how you are 'starting over' in Oregon right now. I'm sure it was hard leaving behind everyone at Dordt... but now you are getting married soon and moving into a new place, finding a job. Is it overwhelming or mind numbingly exciting? I can only imagine this strange sense of freedom you must have!
In conclusion:
Perhaps the grass will always be greener on the other side of the fence, but why live in a muddy hole? Even if the grass has a few weeds once you get there, why not take the risk? I say it's worth it. We only have 1 chance to live each day. Make it count so you don't get to the end of your life with a mile long list of regrets.
Is it really my fault that the manager hasn't been doing his job by keeping the store staffed properly? No, of course it isn't... but I don't want my coworker friends to suffer the wrath of our oh, so sensitive manager when I leave. It is imminent. I can't go back on this decision now.
Maybe this all sounds trivial, but this is huge in my world. I have a hard time with change. But, this job has not been a healthy 'normalcy' to live in. It's strange how making this decision has actually made me feel more alive.
Brielle, I keep thinking about how you are 'starting over' in Oregon right now. I'm sure it was hard leaving behind everyone at Dordt... but now you are getting married soon and moving into a new place, finding a job. Is it overwhelming or mind numbingly exciting? I can only imagine this strange sense of freedom you must have!
In conclusion:
Perhaps the grass will always be greener on the other side of the fence, but why live in a muddy hole? Even if the grass has a few weeds once you get there, why not take the risk? I say it's worth it. We only have 1 chance to live each day. Make it count so you don't get to the end of your life with a mile long list of regrets.
posted by Cristina | 10:50 PM
3 Comments:
Maybe this is why people dont leave abusive relationships... the ultimate fear of change. Because really, thats what your in, an abusive realtionship with your job. Its time to go, and your co-workers are going to have to understand that you need to make this change. Any junk that comes of it at Slumberland, is because they have absolutley no cusioning for this type of thing, and they need to change that. That is their fault and they need to answer to it. Your co-workers are smart enough to know where the fault lies, even if your manager tries to distort that. This is going to be a great change!!!
what he said!
it is hard to leave college, i keep feeling like i am just visiting here but we are doing a lot of work at the house that we are going to move into so it is slowly starting to feel like home. when are you coming out to oregon? hopefully when it is not raining, it is a pain to move in the rain.
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